11 posts from October 2009

ore wa shigotonai...

lost it...

very very depressed....

will go away for a bit...

anou~ i don't know what to say again..
*stares at hands*
i guess..its a good thing that you and your friends decided to joke around with passing an application to the jimousho..that your okasan told you to make up your mind about going to the audition..that even if your otosan was against everything, he still drove you to the audition...
anou~ i guess...i just..anou~ *sniffs* mou..here i go again.. *wipes tears* i'd like to thank you for saying yes to the offer of joining arashi..and staying on.. because if you didn't *wipes tears again* anou~ *stares at hands* i...i...i... *giggles and bows* sumimasen deshita, i'm not really good at saying what i want to say to guys.. demou~ anou~ *sniffs* i'd just like to say...i'd wouldn't have met my friends if not for you.. or.. or.. even stayed long till now... *bows again* doumo arigatou gozaimasu, sakurai sho..
*runs away..crying in a corner of my room where sho can't find me*

Title: 4th Avenue Cafe
Pairing: Tanaka Koki X OC
Genre: AU, fluff than turns into mwahaha~
Rating: NC-17
Disclaimer: I don’t these boys… I wish I did though…
Summary: Aoi works in a coffee shop and Koki is a stalker…well..a little bit of a stalker..
A/N: anou~ this is for boots-imouto, note..since i am pressed for time..some parts are just edited from the original text..i don't like doing that (plagiarism) but then again for the sake of sticking to the original storyline and character references i have changed very little..mah..ok a little bit then...

Aoi was staring at the cream-tiled floor, another endless tirade from the old hag that was her Ojou-sama.   He pretty face almost in tears as her hands grasped the edge of her blue cafe apron.  Aoi's head bowed mutely as she let the anger of the manager rose and fell like waves, it was the second outburst today when the girl failed to clear up a table in time for another customer.

Koki watches the old woman walked away and thinking painfully why there are still evil people in the world, why they find enjoyment in upsetting other people. his attention goes back to the poor young woman, he lovely raven black hair parted to one side and her bangs kept in place with a pretty glittery purple hairpin.  Koki stares intently and feels a sudden pain t the pit of his stomach when he realizes that the girl's eyes were already brimming with tears. He feels his chest tighten when the girl gulped and blinked them back.  Koki looks away slightly irritated, sighing in frustration.  Finishes his coffee, grabs his camera and takes his leave.

~**~

Koki puffs out another cloud of smoke, leaning on the post of the bus stop sign. He silently cleans the lens of is camera with the hem of his shirt until another figure stands beside him.  From his peripheral view, the figure seemed familiar so he looks up and finally sees a familiar face. The young woman looks at him before turning her eyes back onto the empty street.

“Oh, it’s you…” Koki smiled and straightens up, the young woman giving him a second look. “This morning, in the coffee shop.” Koki says further when she just blinked at him.

“Ahh..y-you were there?” Her eyes widen and turns to Koki with full attention. ”Anou~ Sumimasen deshita for the commotion a while ago.” her face fell, bowing a little.

“Eh? You don’t have to apologize to me.” Koki briefly waves for her to stop. “I bet… you were just deep in thought a while ago, deshou?”  He says non-chalantly drops his cigarette on the sidewalk, stepping on it until the light died out.

“Iie… Just really clumsy.” She giggles softly, shy of the admission.

Soon the bus arrives and they make their way inside. The lovely young woman sits by the window.  Koki follows her and hesitates for a moment. “Do you mind?” he asks.  She just shakes her head, Koki makes himself comfortable beside her.

“Douzo.” Koki takes out a white handkerchief from his left pocket and offers it to the woman beside him.

“Sir?” she asks in confusion of the man’s actions.

“You don’t have to call me ‘Sir’. My name is Tanaka Koki.” He tells her with a smile.

“But you’re a customer.” She turns her gaze to her hands folded on her lap..

“When we’re in the coffee shop, yes. But now we are not. You know, you are too polite and too kind, that’s why some sadistic people take advantage.” Koki then places his hanky on the other’s open palm. “Douzo.” He smiles kindly before transferring on a seat three rows behind the woman.

Aoi looks out the window, unfolds the hanky before letting her tears meet the piece of cloth, flowing freely as the bus drove into the inner parts of Shibuya.

~**~

The next morning, Koki sits quietly on his usual spot, spreading pictures taken from the day before as he waits for his order.

“Here’s your caramel cappuccino, Sir.” 

Koki smiles at that familiar voice, now more cheerful than yesterday. He looks up to see a matching smiling face.

“Seems like you slept well last night.”

“I did, Sir. I feel better now. And thanks for this. I must admit that it helped.” The girl fishes out the white hanky from the pocket of her blue apron and rests it on a space at the corner of the table. “Don’t worry, I washed it already. Thanks again.” She bows timidly one last time, before turning to leave.
 
“You are most welcome, Serumeno-chan.” Koki acknowledges and Aoi froze, turning back at him.

“I don’t remember giving you my name, Sir.”

“Oh… Your nameplate just told me.” Koki smiles proudly. Aoi looks at her uniform  of the frilly long-sleeved blouse, black mini skirt, blue apron and finds her metal nameplate pinned on her left chest that bore her name, Serumeno Aoi. She blinks, thinking if she could get any more stupid.

“Ahh sou.. anou... I have to go back to work.” She finally excuses herself, embarassed at the situation. Koki watches her retreating figure and mentally slaps himself for thinking that Aoi's waist seems to curve down to her rear ever so temptingly.

~**~

That same evening, Koki patiently waited at the bus stop until Aoi got off work.

“You’re here again?” Aoi asked as she reached the bus stop.

“I regularly take the bus.” Koki explaines plainly.

“I do too, Sir. But it was only yesterday that I saw you here. I’ve been taking the bus for a year now.”

“I said Koki is fine Serumeno-chan.” Koki corrects her and the girl quirks her lips in hesitation.

“Well then, Aoi would be fine too, Koki-kun.”

“Aoi… I like that better. Going back, Aoi-chan, I just had a change in my workshift. That’s why you haven’t seen me in the past. I used to take the morning bus.”

“Sou ka…” Aoi nods before curiosity takes over. “Where do you work, Koki-kun?”

“Over that building.” Koki nod his head towards a high-rise establishment with a sign saying:  TOP READS PUBLICATIONS.

“Uwaaah… you belong to the highest-selling magazine publication?” Aoi can’t help but stare at him. The man looks so simple to be working in such a company. “Ah!” he suddenly exclaims with excitement. “You’re a photographer there!”

“Well, not really. Actually, I work as a graphics artist.”

“Oh…” Aoi frowns at his misinterpretation. “So what’s with that camera then?”

“This?” Koki raises his camera a bit. “Ah, well actually, this is just more of my hobby… out of passion… I guess. Don’t tell me you’ve mistaken me as a professional.”

Aoi pouts and Koki laughs slightly at the other’s expression. “Aoi, that face was just adorable.” Koki remarks but the honking of the coming is too loud so Aoi barely hears anything from what Koki said.

~**~

Eventually, things become a habit. Koki’s morning coffee is always served with a sweet smile and his photos of the most random things always get words of praise from a guy who seems to be easily amused with the simplest of things. And he decides that one Nakamaru Yuichi is enough to complete his day.

During evenings, Aoi gets off from work and Koki is there waiting for him at the bus stop. They ride the bus together and Koki tells him of the silly stuff that happen in his workplace and Aoi laughs like there is no tomorrow.

“You are really funny, Koki-kun.” Maru tells him one time as he brings up his dainty hands to massage his tired jaws and cheeks.

“If that’s what you think then I’m glad that I am because you’re really cute when you laugh like that.” Koki admits and instantly, three other people in the almost empty bus look at them in horror.

Aoi blushes madly and thinks that she should’ve just kept her mouth shut while Koki is still pondering if he said it out too loud.

~**~

When Aoi got a couple of days off from work, Koki is not quite sure why he decided to skip work too. He called his boss and lied about being sick just to take Aoi out to ‘fun’ places which happen to be the usual dating spots for lovers. And Koki is even more confused why he dragged Aoi  to such places. But his confusion gets replaced with undeniable anxiety when Aoi ’s hands brush against his as they walk side by side in the public park.

Unfortunately, the weather spoiled the ‘fun’. They return earlier than planned and Koki asks Aoi  to just stay in his place instead of battling the heavy rain alone on her way home. When Aoi  agrees, Koki is more than happy.

From the bus stop, they take a dead run to Koki’s apartment. If it’s not as heavy as it is, Koki could’ve liked the idea of holding Aoi ’s hand under the rain but it’s the kind of rain that could get someone sick so Koki abandons the thought and saves the romantic idea for a more appropriate time.

Dripping clothes were hung to dry and Aoi ’s laughter fills the kitchen as she makes fun of herself… of how she looks in Koki’s baggy clothes and that another person can still fit in it. Koki laughs in much amusement as he rummages his fridge for anything they can eat. Curse the damn weather. Koki initially planned to take Aoi to a friend’s place for dinner but it would be shameful to enter a fine-dining restaurant with them looking like wet puppies. Soon,Aoi finds a pack of pasta in the cupboard and they end up eating tuna spaghetti in pesto sauce.

“You’re a good cook.” Koki compliments him after the hearty meal.

“I’m good at a lot of other stuff aside from making coffee.” Aoi emphasizes as she cleans the dishes, feeling that Koki was eyeing her from behind.

“I wouldn’t be surprised.” Koki smirks.

~**~

They stayed in the living room after dinner, Aoi still unable to get over the shirt thing. They both laugh for a while until they run out funny things to laugh about and a very awkward silence takes over.

Aoi suddenly feels a chill run down her back, making her shiver. Koki noticed, rushing to his room, coming back with a thick blanket in hand. He sits dangerously close to Aoi and wraps the blanket over the young woman's shoulders. Aoi looks up at him in an almost painful way and Koki thinks she might melt. There is confusion deep in Aoi ’s heart that is dying to be answered.

“Koki…” Aoi  inhales, gathering the courage she has. After months of being around each other, possibly being way too close than normal friends do and maybe even dating exclusively… or maybe just for Aoi, things remained undefined and unofficial so Aoi  thinks that everything has to be cleared NOW.

“Koki… what… what are we?” she finally asks managing not to stutter or jumble the words.

Koki stays silent as he keeps his eyes on Aoi .  Yet, he doesn’t know how to say it. He was never good in verbalizing his feelings. Not even today. But he fears of losing this someone staring right at him now. So he just decides to put in actions.

Koki leans in closer, letting his hand slip under the base of Aoi ’s neck. Aoi closes her eyes in anticipation and soon Koki’s tongue was delving in her mouth. She felt himself being pressed down the couch. Aoi opens her eyes; the fear might be showing because Koki seems to understand.

“Do you mind?” Koki asks, a hand moving down to cup her butt and it is all but implied. The young woman shakes her head and closes her glazed eyes again before surrendering to Koki’s touch.  Her soft whimper enough to ignite the fire even further.  The baggy clothes now scattered all over the living room sofa and the low table nearby.  The graphics artist, creating his own image of how their love was to be shared.  He slowly let his hands roam her smooth skin, her pulse quickened at the softes touch.  Aoi was new to this yet it all seemed so right, making her nerves tingle so explicitly delicious that she wouldn't have had the courage to stop Koki even if she wanted to.  But what was the point in that?  She wanted this, his love.  She let her hands roam his skin slowly raking her nails down his back.  A wild, agonized groan coming from Koki, breaking away from the kiss.  Aoi trembled underneath him as Koki breathed her name before letting his lips explore every patch of exposed skin.  It was insanity not to want more than what he could give now. 

Koki could no longer restrain himself when her hands gripped him snugly, tentatively playing with it.  The groan became a loud cry, it was a good thing that the loud pounding of the rain outside muffled it.  Aoi was surprised that she almost let go but Koki took over her hand, releasing his urgency from her grasp.

"Aoi.."  his eyes asked the question.

"Please.. Koki..." her arms wrapped around his neck as he let him sink into her warmth.  And the dance of love started, slowly and sensuously he slips his length into her over and over.  The molten lava pushing itself up to the limits.  Koki picks up the pace as the loud pouring of the rain outside overpowers Aoi’s moans. Soon, the heat overflows and Aoi screams in a surprising high pitch as her toes curl with Koki’s final thrust. Heavy breaths as their peaks subsided for the last tremors. They lay spent on the couch, keeping each other warm from the cold rainy night.

~**~

The next morning, Aoi opens her eyes and gets greeted by the constant rise and fall of Koki’s chest. She untangles herself from Koki’s embrace and rolls off the couch. She puts Koki’s oversized shirt back on and wanders around the apartment. Enters Koki’s room to have a look and gets a pleasant surprise with what’s inside.

Stuck on the walls of Koki’s room are their pictures, though mostly of herself which were definitely stolen shots. Photos of her while he was cleaning in the shop, while serving to other customers, while laughing with his colleagues.  Photos of Aoi while sleeping peacefully in the bus, even the different profiles of her face. All taken magnificently, he even thinks if Photoshop has something to do with them.

She looks at how all the photos covered the walls artistically and then starts to realize why Koki is not so good with words. Emotions were all found in his photos, enough for her to know that it’s love. Almost in tears when a pair of familiar arms wraped around her waist.

“Don’t get mad. I wasn’t stalking. Promise…” Koki whispers softly in her ear turning the woman to face him.

Aoi gives him a good morning kiss before smiling sweetly. “I don’t mind Koki. I don’t mind.” 

END

yosh!! i'm sleepy, dizzy and i was staring at your niichan all night just to make this ne..hope you do like it..wo0o0!!
ero-hime signing-off! n_n

Satoshi-niichan 

i know its kinda late demou~ it's another year yet you don't look any older ne?
i have come to admire you midway into my being a fangirl..i didn't really like you that much at first but then..i appreciate you for being the 'reluctant riida' of arashi..one whom the onthers see as a source of warmth and happiness..

niichan, you have one really wonderful person..you do remind me of my grandpa Antonio sometimes ne..
no, not because of the fishing but because of  your firm gentleness..
the love that you show the rest of the members and the kindess you have for your fans..i will never ever forget.. why? because you yourself do not forget the fans.. the ones who are always there at concerts.. you said before.. that you remember those who come every since year.. that really warmed even my heart even if i haven't (and will not) go to your concerts..

oh and this is also for your tanjoubi next month..heven forbid that i forget about it ne..

anou~ arigatou gozaimasu.. for soooo many many things...
you have shared a lot of yourself to the fans and i hope you will always continue to do so..

niichan daisuki 

from today...i shall not be posting much..
i can still be reached through my cellphone..
this is because i just end up making people go away so I'd rather stay away na lang... thanks for everything minna..

JEEP- i will follow through on the registration, don't worry about that..

ASW- i will still do my duties but after the gathering...I'm not sure i can go to any others...

my blogs will remain but I'll only post fan fiction..other than that...nothing else...

minna...doumo arigatou... *bows*

x-posted on all sites

Title: For the love of ARASHI
Author: VampyrRep
Genre: a fluffy oneshot..hehe..
Rating: R-13??
Pairing: SakurAiba
Disclaimer: mah..do i need one? i don't own either of them...nya nya nya~ or anyone in this world for that matter~
A/N: started as a random textfic i sent right after the battle royale online against SuJu fans..man was that really fun! hahaha!!  Exciting!! Oh and guess who the fangirl is...wo0o0o0!! *does the bananaman dance from plurk.com*

It was aleady 4 am in their apartment in Shibuya-ku, but Masaki was still hunched over his laptop.  He was clumsily trying to type in english, brow furrowed in deep concentration that he barely noticed the time.  He had to help out, its the only way he could think of thanking them.  He can hear Sho grinding his teeth from the bed they shared.  The rapper's shirt was already rumpled and bunched up is torso.  The bedclothes in disarray around him as his hand rached out for Masaki's side of the bed. Feeling nothing but the cool sheets next to him, he was roused from his sleep.

"M-Masaki..?", Sho sat up rubbing his eyes.  His newly trimmed hair sticking out in different funny directions.  Masaki almost fell from his seat in front of his laptop at the deep sound of Sho's voice.
"Oh..I thought you were still asleep..its still early..." he stuttered in reply, trying to close the laptop down.  He smiled nervously back at his Sho-chan.
"Sou ka...." The rapper looks at the clock next to be bed then back at Masaki," then why are you up?  Nani sore?"
"Ahhh~ b-betsu ni" the younger one says with a genki grin.  Sho is already suspicious but lets it go, he knew better than to pry.  Aiba on the other hand was dying to tell him anyway by the looks of him.  Sho just got up from the bed and counted in his head.  Five.  four.  Three.  Two.  One.

"Ok.  I'll tell you", the taller one cried out all of a sudden, pouting up at Sho who was standing in his pajamas.
"Nani?" Sho's deep voice asked.
"Anou~  I was trying to help out.."
"Help?  Dare ka? Nino? Ohchan? Matsujun?" the older one's face tried to work out who was in trouble.
"Ahhh~ iie.. not them..  Them",Masaki opened the laptop again and the page for the Channel [V] Battle of the Pops stared back at Sakurai Sho.  Suddenly the rapper burst out laughing.
"You're... voting for us?" the rapper said in between chuckles.
"Mou~ Chigau yo!!" Masaki pouted and turned to the laptop, trying to go back to what he was doing.  Trying to copy from a note pad and replying to this other person on YM.  Sho was so amused at the thought but then let his chuckles die down as he saw his love's determined expression.
"Ne...Masaki.." Sho peered over Aiba's shoulder, bending over to rest his chin on the taller one's shoulder.  Masaki kept silent as he desperately tried to ask this other person over the YM and started to go over other sites methodically.  Sho nodded, he understood what Masaki was doing and hugged his neck.
"I just wanted to help out..." Masaki started to say,"Do you see how hard the fans are trying to vote for us?"
The tallest Arashi member let the cursor click on other screens showing posts from forums, blogs and networking sites asking for votes for their group.  Sho smiled, his chest felt like it was tightening.  He understood, pulling away from Aiba.
"What's more this girl....is really nice.." Masaki showed a post of a fangirl.
"Oi~ be careful ne..."Sho warned.
"Daijoubu I used a gaijin name...Cris.." he showed his YM window.
"Sou.. demou..."
"Tanoshii desu!"Aiba interjected, giggling before turning in his chair to face Sho.
"Eh?"
"It fun. And I'm happy they're doing this for us.  They are tired already but they still go on.  I want to thank them but...but I can't.  So I'll help..This is the only way I can think of, Sho-chan..."  At that point, tears began to fall from Masaki's eyes.  Sho'face clouded over with concern and understanding.  He knelt in front of his love and started to wipe his tears.
"Mah..Mah..I think they already know we thank them for where we are today ne~" he cups Masaki's face and smiles.
"S-sho-chan........."he started crying all over again, leaning forward and falling into Sho's comforting arms.
"My masaki has a very kind heart ne..but too much of a crybaby~"
"Mou~" Aiba collected himself and drew back from Sho, smiling and then pouting a little.  He was so cute when he did that.
"Ja let's help them ne~" Sho said as he pulled another chair next and started to open his own macbook.  Masaki was nothing but smiles as he started to chat with the fangirl again.
"Ne who are you chatting with?" the rapper asked.
"uhm she's really nice and funny~" Aiba said.
"Sou ka.."
"and she has an avy of you and matsujun in bed"
"EEEEEEEEHHHH?!"

~END~

P.S. comments are forever loved♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

i am both a kpop and jpop fangirl..but i voted heavily for arashi..i'm admittedly one of those who asked for other fangirl's help anywhere i can...
i just feel that this is too much...

the battle that was between the two groups was very harrowing..tiring..ELF and ARASHIANS did it because of the love we felt for our ichiban groups ne..i won't say that either one did anything wrong...
haha...that would be prejudiced of me to say so..it was an honorable battle..like Yankumi would say...if something is done with honor, there is nothing to be ashamed of in winning or losing..even if arashi lost..i'd accept it and be happy for suju..even vote for them in the next rounds..since i like them too.. (eeteukie♥)
but since this is what happened..its just sad that an argument even started..there's no secret weapon..

Annie is right..the secret weapon is the friendships we all fostered..without that..without the bond that is Arashi -and for them Super Junior- there wouldn't even be a battle, deshou?  I just hope this wouldn't anger them anymore.. I mean.. without music, without SuJu or Arashi?? what do we do?? i wouldn't even be here and yabbering away... haha...bottomline is ELF is one of the most organized and very driven group of fangirls i know... I have ELF and CAS friends too, you know...i have nothing but love for everyone of them...  I apologize to the ELF fans who had to go through the war of words with any one of us JE fangirls.   Arashians just want to win, as i think its the same for ELF girls as well.  If they say they let us win, thanks ever so much..  This is a wonderful gift you can give to ARASHI on their anniversary year.. in the next round we hope to do our best again..hopefully in the battle till the very final round ends..

(^_^)

the channel [v] Battle of the Pops is still on till 12 GMT
if you're in HK that's not till 4pm today the 4th of October
so keep em coming girls
vote here!!

OI~!!!! what is the meaning of this ne? are we going to let ARASHI lose?
wake up people!!!

ArashiVSsuju

are we just going to let this happen? vote vote vote!! more accounts more fun! i've made like 10 but it seems that its not enough...must make more!!

vote vote vote!!

haha..random blog title...nya nya nya~

fangirling runs in the family..apparently..
wahaha..recently my mama opened up to me telling ho when she was a little girl, she loved watching this tv dorama of a samurai and his battles..Shintarou Akikusa..haha..she would tell me how handsome the actor was..i searched a while ago and lo and behold!!
haha!!

there was such a show..The Samurai...
wahahaha~
credit pics to owners of course...

i keep laughing when i see this..i must tell her about it later when i get home..

anou~ on another note..
last i updated and voted on Channel [V] BOP
its just a flimsy difference between Arashi and SuJu, with the former leading by a hundred votes or so..girls! what the heck is wrong with you? move your crazy asses!! A~RE~!
i like SuJu but as a gift to ARASHI this year ne..this is a concrete way to show support!!!!

vote vote vote!!!